I have reemerged

After a very long time, I mean, a very long time, I have reemerged.

What shook my unscathed slumber for years?

I’ll tell you what. I also don’t know. After a very long hiatus, which none of you are aware of, because potentially you might have only stumbled upon this desolate land for the first time, thus not knowing a thing about what I am talking about, because even a post about it did not even exist, I just decided to post a post in this blog.

What you may not realize, is that this post is actually a test of something. I don’t know, maybe it’s just a post to test how reliable my English skills is after all these years after coming to a country that doesn’t speak English and shaped the language into an indescribable pile of a mess that they love to use because their society decided so.

And because of that, due to the natural instinct of our human mind (provided that it’s a normal one) to link things associated to whatever thing we stumble at the moment, I might create posts that pertains, or if you put it adequately, relates to a popular language that the country I currently reside uses intensively, or rather, exclusively.

And I think you know what language I’m talking about which, by the way, I will immediately debunk by saying that it is actually false, because there’s no way you’ll know what I’m talking about. It’s actually about one famously (notoriously?) known “difficult” language, with which various forms of media in that language actually spread throughout the world and helped shape/influence various industries, specifically, technology and art/entertainment industries, to what they are today. And you might know the reason why I wasn’t able to post a single damn thing for a long time aside from me being lazy and shamingly undetermined to the path I declared that I chose even though no one actually cares.

There will be posts in the near future (that’s a relative word) that will undermine those topics, and will help me organize my thoughts as I myself, seem to have stumbled upon a wide plateau that seem to cut the passage through that mountain I want to climb. Everyone around me said that I already am fluent and very good at the language but I refuse to acknowledge that. Especially since it ain’t my native tongue. As it is historically a very deep, sophisticated, dynamic and contextual language. There is still a lot to learn.

There is a saying (that I invented) that says one should not be content with the knowledge that he has, as there is only one constant thing, and that is change learning.

And I will give you a clue; it’s in Japanese.

omg i gave a clue i feel so smart


An update post, yay!

Thank you for being a patron of this website, I mean, for your first visit on this website. I mean, for your accidental visit on this website. You must have found a depressing part of the deep internet (ha).

This year was a very difficult one, emotionally, ideologically, economically, however you put it (it doesn’t concern you, anyway). Though, this update post (you can’t even begin to call this a post…), however insignificant and useless its contents are, might give me (and you) a fickle of light and hope to continue moving forward in this life, by being a post itself.

A post, whatever it is, however it came by, marks a progress; a stepping stone, I dare say, if we are being the figurative guys. So in the desperate attempt to maintain this disposal dump of a site, I had the necessity to write this post. A progress, by being progress itself, is arguably always the fundamental component of hope. Yep, you heard (or rather, saw) it first here.

A bit of history. Only a couple of posts below this one is a Happy New Year post. Incidentally, the next New Year is drawing near. That is very awe-inspiring, if I think about it. I’m dead serious.

Having been very busy figuring out where the heck is the next useless checkpoint in the game of the millennium Real Life™ (you can’t revive back to a checkpoint) and still not figuring it out, I conclude that writing a post about future plans for your life and the future itself does nothing good and might just actually jinx your actual conceived future plans.

Instead of giving you an illusionary stepping stone to enact the said plans, you might have as well decided that they will not happen. It’s kinda the illegitimate sister of knowing a predetermined future; knowing that said future will inevitably happen, you gracefully embrace it and do nothing in an attempt to change it, in the comfort of inability. While that is totally fecked up, the same thing (“fecked up”) can be said to writing and listing down your future plans, and then not becoming a reality.

Now, you may ask and say, ‘What’s with this update post? It is clearly a nonse… err, sensible post for some sort of future plans…’ I’ve got to tell you, that you’re wrong. This is a ‘totally random post, made mostly of itchy fabrics of mental deductions of daily philosophical ideals that my brain conceived, thus it must be dumped’ kind of post. Any future plans written in this post is clearly for the amusement of the idea that this post beget.

tl;dr: There will be upcoming posts.

Now, that’s a good opportunity to be jinxed.

Very Late Happy New Year Everyone!

Yes, very late, indeed. But better late than never, no?

But in actuality, I do not have the need to post this post with the convenient title. I posted it, anyway. Why? Is it because it’s habitual? A trend? A standard in this society/culture? Or is it because I do mean it?

Why do people do this every year? Why waste money, time, personnel, gun powder, paper? Do they do it with the same reason every year? Or is it because they are swayed by other people? That’s the thing about being a social being; we can’t help it. Whatever the reason perceived in doing it. Even though there is no point of doing it. Even if we do not mean it.

Honestly, I do not mean it also. I do not mean a happy new year for everyone. Heck, I do not even know the anonymous you. I don’t even think someone would visit this site on purpose. I just posted it because that’s what everyone does; you feel the need to do something because people around you did. That’s the power of social interaction. That, my friend, is being human.

When you don’t feel posting “happy new year” and you cannot think for this year to be a happy one, because of reasons like your life sucks™, or you’re just an old plain cynic, just think about this: we won’t be able to get at this point of human evolution if we’re not being human, if people don’t get to make examples from/for other people. This is seen on all fields and places humans go: art, technology, cities, cultures, etc. All of us revolve around human-acknowledged principles, like emotions, and it’s part of every work humanity have done in this cruel universe, however insignificant we are. We can’t be human without norms and morality. And giving and getting a “happy new year” doesn’t hurt.

So, happy new year to you guys.

Amidst all this “long” post, the truth is, I just got back from playing Real Life™ (the game has realistic graphics and damage parameters) and I got nothing to post so I posted this instead.